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Finally... need to be free! :)

Oh finally it has come to me..
To write and plea..
To the lord almighty..
- "Help, coz I need some things for free..!"


Wait, no longer I can..
Coz enough I have ran..
Behind unrealistic faces..
Now I wish to get rid of some traces..


Plans now are a little more tangible..
Some instinctively manageable...
Priorities, I know are some unset..
Few new are now on the crest...


Set for some new locations..
unknown expressions..
trying to get rid of some clumsiness and foolish infatuations
now is the need to get in a different set of relations...


Love, I know will happen to me..
As time will flee..
With little nervousness and curiosity..
I take my steps to set myself free...!

Off

Cool wind on my face Reminds me I’m stuck in a maze A dusky haze I fail to wipe off…
Moments pass by A smile with a wry No tears to cry I fail to write me off…
Off they go With a smirk in their eyes Off they go With ignorance on their minds Off they go.. my feelings.. Oh! off they go from all the sides
Looking out with an array of bewildered emotions I’m letting myself be taken away in this wind’s direction Without your sanction Oh lord! how do I put my past off…
Standing on the edge of this cliff I wonder if I at all miff Oh please don’t play the riff In the times so stiff When I fail to look out for a partner to just laugh it all off….

Desperation in words...!!!

Awakening with a shudder I respond to my own imbalance Pervert thoughts mutter Loveless feeling.. cropping up again…
These hormones reacting weirdly I look at everything for prey To gut out all I have… is what is left for the day…
Hell that touch is so tantalizing   A hug so mesmerizing A notion so abusing Now awareness no more so amusing
Seductive thoughts linger all over I wish to pounce on everything under cover Hell I don’t need a lover Bring me an animal that I would devour…
Just when I’m coming to senses I see myself in menses Reduced to such a horrible state I hover over opportunities But don’t instigate…
Give me a fruit Give me a flower Give me some essence Give me a shower…
Clean me off the stains Take me in the rains Make me dine Pour on me some wine Taste me till I sour Dear lets jus be ourselves for this hour…
Rinse me off your sweat Nothing equal to this I have still met Lead me to ruins Get down to my knees… I’m sure you would do what I please…
Read my eyes Don’t stumble.. Help me on my feet If I tremble.. Jus…

Bouts of Thoughts...

Regardless I was sitting under the moon The night shone so bright A tune ringing in my head A long lost dream in sight…
I stared in wilderness As the night would fade… Would have loved for the ignorance and helplessness to stay.. But the bouts of thoughts did invade..
Thoughts came and went… Time knocked several times Could not by anyways this situation evade I just cared less than a dime..
Satire aint working Sarcasm too much Exaggeration to hell My friend, it simple... I suffer from pain in my bowel
Caffeine hitting harder than alcohol Spirits going to hell Heavens rise too high I am addicted to myself
The priest did try to awaken my soul In apathy I erode Serene tasks Mundane routine.. yeah that has become me… I love myself
But... tough to be gloried!!!
No there aint no white flag at my door I won’t throw the towels in my life’s ring What is this.. I fail to figure out I just whistle and sing…
An apple left to decay Or a bread left to stale Running away from people I find my peace in myself
A last dance to dance A la…

Antagonist in schooling...

Clueless as to where m heading... Needless to say.. getting stagnant day by day Worthless for what m working... Helpless when it comes to pray...

Not sure if m reaching heights Losing faith in sights Extravagant opportunes Morbid attitude I forget to fight

Sanctity lost Yet love no more is subjective Monopoly is ruling The politics objective... Here's an antagonist, now in schooling!

Finding ME in me: ह्याचाशी माझे नाते आहे…

Finding ME in me: ह्याचाशी माझे नाते आहे…: "(माझ्या मैत्रिणी (दिव्या) साठी काही ओळी) - visit divyaranadive.blogspot.com हवा हवा सा वाटणारा जिव्हाळा,तो पहिला मादक स्पर्शाचा निवारा..."

In fond memories of Capt. Nikhil Jadhav...

A long lost childhood friend... (24th May 1983 to 7th March 2011)


The music was playing
But couldnt listen to it
The food was on the platter
But couldnt eat it
The news had come
But still cant take it..

Time had arrived
But took away the wrong one
In silence and tranquil
Now lies your gun


That brain closed the doors
To the world unknown
That heart went numb
To the pain and succumbed


Still unable to take the news
You didnt leave us any clues
Rest in peace my dear friend
M sure ur safe up there


Till time unknown when we see you again
We'll stare the sky to point a STAR that you wud represent..


R.I.P. chhotu!!!

Help yourself

Help yourself My friend, help yourself…
It’s a wonderful world But u gotta help yourself
A rollercoaster ride… this life My friend, a rollercoaster ride
Hold on to yourself These rides go high n low Crazy sights on the way You might lose the flow…
Just be yourself My friend just be yourself
Don’t lose on the opportunities They dont come easy you see You gotta buy your every moment here Everything’s a deal, nothing for free…
Move on from this junction My friend, just move away from the old function…
Friends, relatives, marriages don’t happen here on their own The water has always somewhere, flown The sun shines here daily So you see, you gotta face the world gaily…
Pick up your luggage Walk you way Help yourself My friend, you gotta move on everyday…

Was I...???

His breath blew away the hair on my face, I stared in surprise, scared, calm....but felt my heart race... My hand in air.... confused… as I didn’t want to hold him, He came even more close to kiss…A sin!
My eyes closed…scared and bewildered, But he very well monitored… A tear rolled down my cheek, I couldn’t.... But my eyes did speak....
Felt the breeze on my face, As also his hand went through my shirt in slow pace.... I shivered, but wasn’t cold, His hunger grew, for me to hold…
My stomach twitched, As his hand lingered.... The shiver grew, As I gave up and surrendered....
The shirts came apart, as he threw them over the sack, He struggled further on my back... The restless hand unhooked the last piece As he picked me up to take me under the sheets...
That tongue licked everywhere, Tasting my every drop of sweat... I gazed in pain and despair, As his throne moved inside, defining a ruthless death...
With time I saw the feelings end, The touch tearing me apart, I hate his scent... Forgotten what innocence mea…

In high spirits

Yeah I’m gripped by pain no pill no grain
my head spins my vision fades my mouth dries i feel my heart race
my feet tremble my hands stumble i lose breath my words fumble
the momentary lapse the zonked out farce i phase out but the thirst grows in the sparse...
Yeah i need to be drugged a little intoxicated i need to be sloshed and a bit stimulated i need to be smothered ahh for a while.. quench my thirst with the ardent spirit I just cannot go on with a fake smile…
The hunger's growing for brains to go numb in the high spirits i may succumb
With every glass filled to its brim i prowl over each with a grin…
A drop of Vodka so excruciating a little Gin and some Tequila ahh sequined...
Rum to soothe Scotch so smooth Wine, yeah refreshing..

Wanderer

And so i sit here make up my mind try to put down some thoughts to make a rhyme But i wonder...
All's blacked out and my mind wanders through the emptiness to find some words of sinful disgrace
random thoughts come and go but my mind fails to go with the flow
the mysticism grows nothing reveals the fate my brain devours on thoughts in debate
i think of frictions i think of relations but i fail to think of concerns… Oh Lord! show me a direction... As i wander....
The uneasiness in the daedal the blissful words so cynical The world around so methodical n i wander in the madness...
remnants of past disdains of present misleading future living in the aviary, since quite recent
borrowed possessions fear of confessions confused emotions amused by egoism wandering with a light heartedness...
an anthem forgotten a principle long lost an aim reversed m in top gear, yet broken in thought...
loosened ends empty pages colorless crayons to whiten the stains.. of a wanderers ailment…
there are rusted pieces some torn thoughts few orphaned …

Phoolarani...

eka shwasacha antar
pan te hi adhantar
nhavte naate
shabda hi nhavte
vaatle julale maan
kaayamche... nirantar...


Avghadlya veli
komejli ga kali
mavalla diwas
ahe ratra amavas


eka sparshacha adhar
aaj manavar tyachach bhar
vaatle julali taar
pan nirakaar...


gele ga vaahuni
mi phoolarani
mi ga vedi
tyachyat mavalli


arey hey maan veda
evdhya mothya shaharaat
shodhta ek kheda
distach raan mokla
pisaatla...


detach karangli
dharla ga kambreshi
pan andhaarat modli
me ek mithi tyachashi....

Kavita suchat hoti...

Julwun ghetle kaviteshi naate
Ayushyawar hasne aata poore zaale

Nishkal swapnanchya garaaryatun baher padun garudasarkhi jhep ghyaychi hoti
Vasundharela aabhalashi honarya meelanacha avishkar darshavitana kavitechi jod ghyaychi hoti

Mazya pratyek krutitun mazya pratibimbalahi sphoorti milat hoti
Mala swatahla samadhaan hoat hoate, kavitechi saath milat hoti

Buddhi aatmyachi mahati sangtana anubhavachi dnyanganga duthdi bharun vaahat hoti
Bolayla chaalayla vaagayla ekach marga hota, mala chakka kavita suchat hoti...

(an inspiration...)

Ek themb!

Aj waara nustach wahlaOsaad walwantat dhul udwun gela...
Aj odhni nustich udat rahili Olya dolyat tine phakta dulach bharli...
Aj surya nustach ugawla Jata jata matra kali ratra sodun gela...
oon thandi, oon garthyat maza maan bhegalla Tya bhegana buzwayla mala ashrucha ekach themb sapadla!!!!

To my Granddad!!!

May he rest in peace!!!!Wrote this for his 91st b'day!!! (July 2004) All i wish is to have those days back!!! :)
You've crossed 80's long back Now its the turn of 90's Sure you've grown old But still young at heart As today's world...
Still remember you getting me those drawing books and pencils For me to draw and show my stupid skills Still cant forget you getting me those Monaco biscuits To dip them in a cup of tea and enjoy their crisps...
You've walked all the thorned and narrow ways Never thought ill of anyone in anyways Never seen a man with such perfection To be like you, one would need a strong perception...
Its your day today And live it to its fullest I'll pray to God for you To live a life in a way of its best Forget the world and think of the next Dont forget to take your pills and have a nice rest Dream of coming 90's and celebrate it the best :))
Love ya... miss ya :)

Thamb na...

(Inspired from a song...)
Dhunda hote shabda saareDhunda hotya bhavna Vaarya sange vahtana Tya fula pashi thamb na...
Kar mokle maan tuze Saye... tu mazya sange bol na.. Vaarya sange vahtana Ya fula pashi thamb na...
Khup kahi dadlay ya andharaat.. Tu umed navi jaag na.. Vaarya sange vahtana Ya fula pashi thamb na...
Maani swapna lapleli Tyanna dheer nava tu bandh na.. Varya sange vahtana Ya fula pashi thamb na...
Sparsha maj karuni Tu gandha maza sang na... Varya sange vahtana Tu 'mazya' pashi thamb na........!!!

Found...

It doesnt matter where I landAll I know I have myself placed safe in your hand...
The ground may shake me till my core But I believe, way ahead lies our shore...
The moon never shone so bright The days never went so light...
In spite of all the stains I feel cleaned with the rains...
Love, I thought would never blossom But you just showered me with it, friend-bosom...
Bringing myself to what I was Makes me believe for sure all hindrances we may cross...
I rubbed for the jinny to come out with a roaring sound Destiny just shook itself, and we have each other found... :)

Together

Day ended in darkI walked my way in the moonlit path...
Few held me by my hand Few left their marks on the sand...
Few held me tight Few I left with fright...
Gardened everyone But few grew in colours..
Just few in hand...
I dream of turning sandstones into rocks Enjoyed my times in skirts and frocks Time I fit myself in shoes with toughened socks...
No stone, no thorn to prick Got hit by wrong...
Few made me feel again strong
So dear, be my friend and sing along...
Left alone at times with no music no song...
Please sit besides, lets pass this darkness into a new day together along... :)

I am... :)

I am cold…Yet I am warm…I am lost...But yet not bewildered…What am I…?I don’t know…Yet I know I am…I was lonely…And now I have a companion…I am filled with thoughts…With nothing empty, it’s all even…I am glad…But just short of a grin…I am sad…But got no sin…I am happyAnd yes I’m full of giggles…My shore filled with sparkling shingles…A mirror once reflected my apathyAnd now I don’t give a damn to it any…But now I plead to thee…My love… Know me soon…Time is confusing…Winds entangling…Tides low and high…Show me a sign…And all would be fineLay in my armsNo torcher no painJust love my love, is all that you’ll gainFaith in theeFaith in meTrust in theeLove in meNo glad ragsNo occasionsJust love me my love…And I’ll love thee…!!!